certification[s]

"It's the price of rootlessness. Motion sickness. The only cure: to keep moving." _Angels In America

You're bleeding. You are bleeding red white and blue for your mother and father. Your temples burn to save someone, pulsating to protect that blood someone else is losing; pushing you to the next door, next
call, next step, next mile, next month? The soul serenade needed stems from the womb.

Pleading with the sky, exhausted from the arguments and logic the stars seem to respond with, one leech on the back which will never leave until it's over. Suck, drain, drip, loser. The doctor needs to seal the letter of a death certificate, explaining the extreme hemorrhaging and oozing, to god. You cry to a man you barely know, tear staining his white coat, I can predict it all for you, well except the hospital part. Machines act as an orb for our futures, signing the receipt before it's even printed, claiming all rights to face value, and property tax. Memories will be swiped clean, faces covered by blurs, mocking you will a glint of a smile in the background, explaining the past.

Your house is burning down as you sit there, in the cold den, your imagination mixing with reality; your childhood is hard to remember since the black stamp ended what was always sure, always certain. The guardian has turned to you and the position needs to be filled, because ours is gone. You will never eat cupcakes or eggs the same, confiscating easy ways and lies to ease the pain of a depleted soul. Music though, music will probably be the hardest to overcome. I can listen to Suspicious Minds and still enjoy it, but then I need to take a valium. Your age is obstruced by the gush of anger. Being appropriate is bullshit. Numbers equal time and time lost and time forgotten and time found and the number of seconds you wait, hoping for the image to stop re-playing itself in your mind. They all end in: How do you say goodbye to a finger, how do you say goodbye to suit? Ask me why I like hands.

Across the universe, nothings gonna change my world. Beware, you will become aware.